But then suddenly in September I lost my middle brother Eric to Pancreatic Cancer, in 2005 asbestos cancer took our father Bill. Following the death of Eric our mother Lynn pretty much gave up on living and passed away that following Febuary, so I have known a lot of loss and pain of losing a loved one lately. We are pretty much conditioned to accept the death of our parents, even from an early age we realize that they will die before us with old age so when a parent passes over it is very sad but expected and accepted. The same isn’t true with a child, sibling or even good friends for that matter, I’ve watched 2 girlfriends die from breast cancer.

This is a difficult thing to write about because it stirs a lot of emotions in me so I will just stop this post here. But I will admit that I created a myspace/facebook for both my son, mom, dad and brother. Is it morbid that I feel a bit connected with them when I do? Is it an accident that I get shocked a lot and weird stuff happens with my computer? I don’t know, I won’t know until it is my time and I hope that it isn’t for a long while so until then I will enjoy all the signs, orbs and things they send for me to feel comfort.